#033: Let yourself be seen
Self-doubt, OK to BE Seen, Jakarta vlogs (finally), and more tiny yet precious life moments
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“How do you just do it, KB?”
“What motivates you to keep doing things?”
“What’s in it for you, KB?”
Self-doubt has become a friend over the years. Sure, I have had my fair share of ~bad days of feeling “not good enough,” especially in my teenage years and in my 20s, but if those days ever taught me anything, it was this: not good enough. Enough with the fear, enough with that self-pity, enough with feeling inadequate or not fit for this and that.
Of course, I can say this because I’m older now, lol, and life has taught me a bit of this and some of that. But the gift of growing is that sometimes, if I want to do something, then I do it and fck everything else! As long as I’m happy and learning, and I’m not hurting anyone, then why would I choose to sulk in a corner and hide away from who I could be, and what I can do?
Sounds a bit cocky? If so, then it’s your perspective projecting. Hahaha! I’m kidding but I’m also not. The time to believe in myself—ourselves—was really yesterday. And if you think it was easy for me to get here, meet my anxiety-ridden brain. Retraining my brain was and is still like an Olympic sport. But I had to do it for my sake, or I will get nowhere, do nothing. So every time I have a goal, I ask myself: If I don’t think I’m enough to be the person to do this task or job, then when will I ever be if I don’t try?
So I just do it. And I take pride in my courage (and delulu-ness, lol). I work hard at it. But I also don’t forget that the final push to get me where I want to be is the grace, encouragement, and inspiration of the people around me. Therefore, I’m in it for myself first, and then I’m in it for those who believe and find inspiration in me.
From OK to BE Seen (#OKtoBEzine Issue 18)
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📚 Reading
→ I went to the Philippine Book Festival with Peyps the monkey!
📝 Editing
→ Working on a soft landing. with Dawn Lanuza and Layla S. Tanjutco!
🎨 Creating
→ This OK to BE newsletter is an extension of my OK to BE zines. The first OK to BE zine was released in July 2021. Today, we have 18 zines. These zines are dear to my heart because they are not only mine. They are yours, too. Thank you for joining me on this journey!
→ Guides to Beta Reading, available on my Patreon.
🎒 Travelling
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☀️ KB
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"Enough with the fear, enough with that self-pity, enough with feeling inadequate or not fit for this and that."
Thank you for the encouragement, KB! I actually had a similar reflection yesterday as I was writing something in response to a prompt. Yes, let's keep going! We are writers. We are seen. We are loved. No matter what. 🙏